This fall found me in a mess
I was trying to understand why I need you
There are many things I could confess
If only I knew that they were true
The way you lean into me
And the way you caress my heart
While stabbing away care free
Every day is a new start
I wish I could say goodbye
I wish I could let go
I wish what I said wasn't lies
I wish I could let you know
It hurts to be with you
I love the way it feels
At least this part is true
At least these words are real
You should know that I care
Otherwise I'd leave
And the way this is isn't fair
I've developed a strange need
I hope in time you'll see
I hope you'll get the tr
Please remember me
my life is a mess as death calls
it pulls like the moon
and it's as strong as the sea
Please remember me
this is my final wish
that just maybe
I will be missed
Please remember me
as I fall from life
I did finally learn
what was wrong...and what was right.
Last night I dreamt that I held you while you cried
There was no reason
Just the closeness being justified
Two hearts as cold as this icy season
Two cold hearts that soar with the stars
Feel with the depth of the sea
And reach just as far
Two cold hearts that can be still and just be
I'm sorry I can't be more
I don't know who I am
I've tried to tell you this before
Before we both made our plans
Life happens, now I'm bleeding for you
This is what I wanted
To bleed for us two
May I become less haunted
May my dreams be few
May my heart deny
May my soul remember you
May my wings still fly
amongst the stars
By the dreams of tw
Dear TB,
Ok, you win.
It's no surprise to me. My luck never fails to fail; in fact, my luck doesn't exist. And you're the one without scars, with the flawless face and puppy-dog stare that you've used to lure so many girls into your bed. Sure, you're a whore, you'd fuck anything that moved but it doesn't matter. My face is scarred, my hands are rough, and I'm hindered by a thousand different things from every side. My life has been a fucking mess, and you you're free.
It wasn't really a fight, me vs. you. No.
Just a small amount of confusion and mixed feelings between me and your girlfriend, and a decision that left us both
You hold your breath, I guess you're waiting
You tell me where you'll be
You know I'm sick of all this hating
You just want me to see
Now I'm letting you down once again
Another chance just passed me by
We both know this lust will never end
So we dance our dance until we die
Some say you don't really care
Some that you don't hardly feel
If you want me to share
Show me this is real
They say you're good at what you do. Ha.
Perhaps you'll never really be mine
Those guys can make your body move
But only I can make your eyes shine
And even though you'll be sleeping with them
you heart will hurt and tear in time
quite soon all o
This fall found me in a mess
I was trying to understand why I need you
There are many things I could confess
If only I knew that they were true
The way you lean into me
And the way you caress my heart
While stabbing away care free
Every day is a new start
I wish I could say goodbye
I wish I could let go
I wish what I said wasn't lies
I wish I could let you know
It hurts to be with you
I love the way it feels
At least this part is true
At least these words are real
You should know that I care
Otherwise I'd leave
And the way this is isn't fair
I've developed a strange need
I hope in time you'll see
I hope you'll get the tr
Please remember me
my life is a mess as death calls
it pulls like the moon
and it's as strong as the sea
Please remember me
this is my final wish
that just maybe
I will be missed
Please remember me
as I fall from life
I did finally learn
what was wrong...and what was right.
Last night I dreamt that I held you while you cried
There was no reason
Just the closeness being justified
Two hearts as cold as this icy season
Two cold hearts that soar with the stars
Feel with the depth of the sea
And reach just as far
Two cold hearts that can be still and just be
I'm sorry I can't be more
I don't know who I am
I've tried to tell you this before
Before we both made our plans
Life happens, now I'm bleeding for you
This is what I wanted
To bleed for us two
May I become less haunted
May my dreams be few
May my heart deny
May my soul remember you
May my wings still fly
amongst the stars
By the dreams of tw
Dear TB,
Ok, you win.
It's no surprise to me. My luck never fails to fail; in fact, my luck doesn't exist. And you're the one without scars, with the flawless face and puppy-dog stare that you've used to lure so many girls into your bed. Sure, you're a whore, you'd fuck anything that moved but it doesn't matter. My face is scarred, my hands are rough, and I'm hindered by a thousand different things from every side. My life has been a fucking mess, and you you're free.
It wasn't really a fight, me vs. you. No.
Just a small amount of confusion and mixed feelings between me and your girlfriend, and a decision that left us both
You hold your breath, I guess you're waiting
You tell me where you'll be
You know I'm sick of all this hating
You just want me to see
Now I'm letting you down once again
Another chance just passed me by
We both know this lust will never end
So we dance our dance until we die
Some say you don't really care
Some that you don't hardly feel
If you want me to share
Show me this is real
They say you're good at what you do. Ha.
Perhaps you'll never really be mine
Those guys can make your body move
But only I can make your eyes shine
And even though you'll be sleeping with them
you heart will hurt and tear in time
quite soon all o
Being kind and telling lies
I suppose we're just trying to find our way
Through all those feeble tries
Our souls get led astray
Seeing you today gave me strength
Brought blood later in the night
Saw light bring to me new pain
And with it a new fight
Soon you'll be gone forever
I'll lose my chance
To see us together
Lost to fate and circumstance
Why do the wheels turn this way?
How does life shift and diverge?
Where will I find strength to get through the day?
When does the darkness and light merge?
For now it's just us
Running ever so far
Lost in this unbroken trust
Catching the falling stars
Home sick for the day.
I never call in to work, but the flu/fever (oddly out of season)
got ahold of me over the weekend, so I made an exception.
So I've been a potato all day. Resting. Playing Alien: Isolation.
Then somehow I got on Youtube. I was eating poptarts, and I
got to wondering...why are they "best eaten frozen" ?!?! I ended
up watching an old pop tarts advertisement. Just don't ask guys,
I cannot explain how I ended up watching pop tart ads on Youtube.
Then (and this is just as unexplainable) somehow I stumbled onto a video on Youtube
regarding a bunch of riots/gatherings over political drama. I'm sure you guys are pr
Time is like sand. And so much of it has slipped through the hourglass since
the last time I visited here. Something about this site feels strange to me now.
Like it was so long ago and so much has changed. I'm not the person I was
back then. That guy had some serious issues! I look back at some of the things
I said or the (really really awful) poetry and I cringe a little bit. I guess as we
grow older we shed the skin of our former selves. I'm not saying I have wings
or an extra hand or anything, but in a lot of ways it feels like "evolving."
I used to get on here all the time. Back when I lived at home. Back when Mom
and Dad wer
I don't know when the next time that you'll check this will come around, but happy birthday. I hope things have lightened up, even if it's just a tiny bit, since the last time you've written anything here.
A very belated thanks for the birthday wishes! Things have changed a lot for the better.
I hope you and DCB are both doing alright. I've missed our talks about anime. And Hichigo. That guy was crazy. I never did finish reading the Bleach Manga. Should add that to the bucket list.
ah man, it's been a while! i'm glad things have gotten better for you in the end
we've both been doing fine as of late. and i've missed those talks about anime too, they were pretty fun~ oh yeah, you know the bleach manga finally ended, so when you get around to it you won't have to worry about waiting for more chapters to come out. i'm pretty happy with bleach's ending (even with all the bullshit) and where hichigo ended up in the story.
I miss reading. I'm so busy nowadays I don't make time for it like I did when I lived with my parents. I'd love to see how it all ends. All the filler stuff was annoying, but I'm sure the ending must be awesome if you're satisfied with it!